Teardrops on my cheeks

Finally burst out, when talking on the phone... finally

I woke up this morning and both eyes swollen like a puff. When it is mentally stressed and tired, and no one really cares, it then explodes.

Now I aware that my working life is like a seesaw. It rides me up and down. What should one comments when a very important person left, or decided to leave? What if not only ONE? What if one day I cannot take it anymore? Will I just get heart attack and say bye bye?

I feel that I’m very strong all these while. I stay alone in an unfamiliar country. I work with people from different cultures. I exercise my patience. I pretend I’m okay no matter what has happened. I listen to others’ problem and try to resolve for them. I keep everything to myself.

I’m so proud of myself!! Anyway, when I’m fully packed I wish to have someone who will listen to me. That is all I want.