I did a good deed today!!

I feel so good today even though I thought that I lost my phone. Luckily I left it at home. And I would say: LUCKILY I left it at home but not in the public bus :) LUCKY me!


So I went home to get my iPhone during lunch hours. And then I met a lady while I was waiting for bus to the MRT station back to office. She cannot see. She is blind.


There comes a very strong desire inside me to help her to complete her journey to the destination. So I offered help and she accepted. I was glad because she trusted me :)


Now that I realized that the public area is so crowded and packed. I was wondering how she could travel on her own all the times. She must be very brave and a little bit fear inside her. But she is well-prepared for all the obstacles she would face.


Suddenly I couldn’t believe that some people around us somehow made me feel that they are a little bit selfish, arrogant, cruel and rude. No one actually offers a seat to her at one time in the MRT, or even gives way to let her walks first. They only did that when I tried very hard to raise my voice to say Excuse Me. I never did that before. I felt embarrassed but I must do it to let her feels that she is not neglected. Human are just like that? Why can’t they move one more step further?


After sending her to the place I quickly rushed back to work. This was the very first time I took 2 hours for lunch time without lunch. GREAT! I was so hungry so I bought a bun to office.


But I suddenly felt moody when I reached office. What a weird reaction I have got from people. I am okay with it - I am broad minded enough to forgive anyone.


Yozz... I did a good deed today!!


Her name is Shu Fen :)

给一个朋友 - ww

张小娴说过：

“你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去，

你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑，

你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人，

根本不值得你为之伤心，

今天回首，何尝不是一个喜剧？

尽情时，自有另一番新境界，

所有的悲伤只不过是历史。”

或许我没有这个资格。但是想跟你分享她说过的话。

Our life is like an order form, we place order for what we want

我看这里应该叫月记比日记更贴切 :)
在11月结束前，让这篇成为这个月的纪录吧。


又是一段很长的时间没来这里了，没想到前几天回来一下下就打消我更新日记的念头。会伤心但是我明白，毕竟她年纪还很轻。


当很多人不明白我的时候，我只有一种感觉：他们不是真心对待我。要不然为什么不尝试了解我，而却是一味地说我变了。变；一个很主观的名词。变得好了，还是变不好了，每个人的想法都不一样。


我为什么变。而为什么我不可以改变。我的人生由我自己决定。任何人都没有资格控制别人的人生不是吗？如果3年前我做的决定，在3年后没有我要的结果，为什么不改变。现在我只想做一个我5年后想要的结果的决定，我不觉得这样会有错。


我知道这过程一定有阻力、绊脚石。会很孤单，很难过，很辛苦。但是一切对我来说都是值得的。如果这个决定和改变都只为我自己，或许我早就已经放弃了。但是我没有，因为这全都是为了我很爱很爱的一家人，为了一个我很爱很爱的人。


我渐渐失去一些朋友，失去跟朋友在一起的时间，失去跟家人在一起的时间。但是我知道换回来的将会是更多的朋友，更多跟朋友和家人在一起的时间。一切都是值得的。


情绪管理很重要。情绪管理真的很重要。辛苦？心里觉得苦，才叫苦。


Our life is like an order form, we place order for what we want.
I want to lead a different life. That is why I am doing a different thing than others now.

I have made a right decision

Woahh.. It’s almost 1 month since my last updates. Work has been busy has usual. Deadlines are near. This is WORK. 

I’m doing quite well in my part time job and getting my 1^st passive income soon. It is so motivated when you know you are getting a second pay other than your active income, which is getting higher and higher than your active income, with all your hard work :) I love what Robert Kiyosaki said: Rich People Build Network, Poor People Work.

I’m glad to have them in my life now. Together, we fight for our Exec Camp & US Trip in 2011!

I’m glad to have Sin Wen & Evon as my angels. Without them, I might not have any chance to go all out to achieve the one little dream in my heart. With them, I’m proud to tell everyone: Nothing is impossible.

Another Happy Birthday to Sin Wen & Evon.

A week before, I was seriously late for a gathering with the ladies. Had a great lunch and talk at DOME! The main purpose is the Talk. I rather we don’t meet up as I’m quite reluctant to tell the stories repeatedly, again and again. The stories happened so long ago and I don’t quite understand why we still wanted to talk about it since the misunderstanding cannot be cleared / someone doesn't want to make it clear. I really don’t mind to talk face-to-face if the other party is willing to do so. The problem lies in the other party. Please just let us talk when I and the one, both are WILLING, as we are both adults.

Went to Highlander last Friday after movie. Didn’t know we have so much similar topics to talk :) At last, at least, we found out we faced the same problem towards a same person and I finally don’t need to blame everything on myself. Thank you for your companion Vivian.

My Holiday Break

And now, it is September! I skipped blogging during August. Why? I couldn't find out the reason(s) too, Ha-ha!!

I came back to Sabah last Saturday afternoon, going back to Singapore on the coming Wednesday. It is so good to be HOME. I have had home-sick for almost half a year my dear! Met daddy, bro and my lovely 9-month old nephew Sheng Hong at Shuang Tian in KK for dinner once touched down. Muacksss!!

Yay!! Finally I am totally recovered from sick. Was having diarrhoea since 1 week ago. My goodness, it took me 1 week to recover :( Doctor said I got food poisoning (cuz I never told him I took alcohol :S). Colleague said I got alcoholism (this is too serious right). Some others said I got mixed milk and alcohol in my stomach. Wahahaha! I trust my big brother the most! Yes, Sir! I cannot mixed vodka with Martel! That was really scary man, I almost dehydrated last week. My stomach is too weak for that. Anyway it was very fun hanging out with Gerine, WH and Aaron.

I felt that daddy finally accepted what I am doing now. I am glad, really happy for him and for myself. All thanks to mummy who loves him and us so much. I love my dad, I love my mum, I love my brothers, my sisters-in-law, my only sister, my little nephews. I will love you all with all my heart!

Welcoming August

It is the last day for July, 2010. I shall wrap up everything and start to enjoy the new months.

Mummy came and visits me in mid of June. We went to Singapore Zoo with my cousin’s family. After that I have a haircut end of June. I love this new hairdo, freshly look!

It was soccer fever in the month of July. I bet but did not win. No luck on me huh :( Ha-ha Anyway it was fun to have chances like these going out with bunch of friends till late night to watch the soccer match.

And then yea, took 2 days leave off and went to Resorts World Convention Centre to enjoy a great sharing that is going to change my whole life to a better one :)

It was quite a stressful month at work in July. Super duper tight deadlines for me and got to work overtime quite frequently. Works alone might not make me sick of stress, relationship with human sometimes contribute to that. One fine Friday night after work went for dinner with colleagues at IKEA Alexandra. Nice food we have had. Eat can de-stress. Whahaaha

Third Friday of July, it came to the day of University friend gathering dinner. Rejection is not a big deal! But my mood was seriously affected by the responses. Well, I told myself I’m not going to organize any gathering again. But KL said he would help me on this. Thanks for your understanding.

After the gathering, went to join my colleagues and started our night walk from Helix Bridge to Raffles Place. 930pm-1130pm. Fun night

The same day was also the last day of work for zx. Only 1 week for now, I started to miss his laughter :D

This is the cutest bookshelf I have ever seen. Ceci made this and we wrote our wishes in the little books for her Papa’s birthday. So sweet.

A lot of things happened in July. And it came to Felicia’s last day of work on Wednesday where I was out of office. We went for dinner the night after and really can feel her happiness. I hope I’m going to enjoy the same soon.

Friday, last day of work of the week. Went to Timbre @ Arts House. I really enjoyed the dinner with my super housemates. But I discovered something that I have never thought of! What a ridiculous thing that I can see. Yea and that is ME. Who cares? By now I apologize if I’m wrong but please forgive me because I’m not sincere in doing this.

Yet, we slept at 5am because we went for a BEST movie called After Shock, a story about earth quake in Tangshan. I cried all the way till the movie ends. Movie ended at around 3am :D Review: 10 Stars! Must watch!

Steamboat on Saturday. I was really dying while eating. And then we celebrated birthday with Meiyern at night before they all went for another mid-night movie again. Whaaa.. Delicious New York strawberry cheesecake from Bakerzin :)

Yup, these end my July. Hoping for a greatest one starting tomorrow :D Good luck for me in everything!

别人

突然间我变得很情绪化

原本以为只是过渡期 没想到好像没有办法控制了

我想我真的变了 变得连我也不认识自己

现在的我

就只是想活在自己的安全区 谁都跨越不了 我也不想出去

表面上我对什么都不在乎 其实我

太在意别人怎样看自己 这样很难受

喜欢就喜欢 为什么不敢面对 为什么要刻意逃避

为什么因为别人的一句话 成全别人委屈了自己 变成了遗憾

不值得却来不及后悔

现在的我 说话字字都要很小心 万一讲错了什么 我又委屈了

如果别人说错话伤到我了 我不可以发脾气 只可以默默忍受 万一发脾气了

受伤的心要自己缝补 痛苦要往肚子里吞 也不可以诉苦

因为如果诉苦 又要引来一堆无聊的风波

要等你长大 还要等多久

Emotional sia !! :(

It's now office hours. I feel quite uneasy. And I hate it when I'm not going to tell people (I cannot tell though) what's wrong with me. I just don't feel like telling anyone. SO yea, I'm suffering from this illness that nobody can cure.

Stupid meeeeeeee :(

It's all about Decision

I don’t know since when, everything has changed. The Person around me, the Feeling I have with, and the Way it should be. All of these changed all of a sudden. I can’t adapt to it at this moment and I feel so awkward. But pretend to be as usual. So disgusting of ME. And, I know no one will please me for my IDIOCY.

Maybe I should say, I need a Change so that I can continue my life journey, or else I will die out.

找不到答案的问题

我最近很郁闷 没有办法把心思全部放在工作上 虽然都有一直在很忙 但是还是感觉不对

我希望这不是被他影响的 但是连我自己都找不到理由说不是因为他

优频道都在播败犬女王 那种事情只有在电视剧情里才有吧 现实中不可能发生那样的事情的

都要大结局了我赶快醒醒吧

他跟我说过要约大家一起去看电影的 他跟我说过要陪我去买东西的

他跟我说的话全部都没有做到 大概只是看我心情不好随便说说的

他根本就是个……

我为甚么要记住他随便说说的话

我为甚么那么容易相信别人说的话

我为甚么把情绪都写在脸上

问题找不到答案

我自己都不了解自己了

may JUNE be another good start too

While it is the time to sleep now, I feel so actively ACTIVE and am doing my blogging now here in BlogSpot, my ALL times favorite place. This is all because I just did all the "duties" like a pupil in school. I swept the floor, I mopped the floor, I washed the bathroom, I brushed the toilet, and I did all the cleanings at the time of 10pm. I am so willing to do all this without an order or gentle reminders. Don't you share the same mind as mine? :)

Yea. I totally love the month of May. Not because of work or friends. For work, there is something that is yet to be announced: There will be a major change in my workplace, Re-shuffle and Re-structure of tax department, with effect from 1st June 2010, due to departure of one of the Tax Director. It doesn't mind. I will just adapt and adopt. I love May because of the important decision I have made. Quoted from whoever ever said this: The life you are living now was determined by the decision you had made 5 years ago. This is truthfully true. So now try to think: What are you really WANT in your LIFE? It is never too late for a change :)

This question hits my heart, deep inside to the bottom. It is so true right!! What do I really want in my life?!! And what you want in yours?!! I don't want to work till 65 years old, the average retirement age in Singapore!! Oh my dear... That's so damn old!! I can't imagine how my face looks like when I'm 65!! No no... With this decision I'm sure I look so much younger when my age hits 65 :D

When this important decision was slowly formed inside my little and easily fragile heart, I started feeling my life getting easier and I live my life lively. Though I'm still stressed at work and confused by human relationship. I'm anyhow not easily get affected now :) Just take it easy okay, girls and guys out there!!

So I'm trying to have a change, slowly by slowly to become a brand new myself. What I need to do now is to build up my confident. Yea, be more Confidence and be more Firm. Oh yah, before that, I got to cure my Decision Making Disorder ("DMD") and Slower Than Snails ("STS"). ROFL. Wahahahaha!!

Hoping for a good start in May

I’m supposed doing my works that I brought home but I’m blogging now. OMG.. What is Tax Equalization? I’m doing the thing that I don’t really understand what it means. Anyway I will try my very best to complete it before Thursday ends. Cuz I’m going to Malacca on Friday!!

It has been very tough for me during the month of April. I faced failures. And I lost faith in true friendship. This was the second time I feel so bad after the Redang Trip incident.. This time, I have a chance to find out why she did that to me but I don’t wish to know the fact. I’m just afraid and tired of being cheated.

It might be too stress for me that I made myself cried in front of my friends..

It was the very first time I made myself drunk in the pub too. Good experience for me. And that I realized I have a bunch of friends who are always being with me and supporting me. Sometimes the ways they talked were harsh, but at least that were from the bottom of their hearts.

I’m surprised that I felt so weird when I have to go home alone recently. It must be something wrong with me.

So after this blog, I decided to put my works aside and throw myself into the bed and wake up earlier in the morning! LOL. Nightmares go away and Sweet dreams please come to me :)

The Auditor III

- CASE CLOSED -

I Need A Change

I was very down the day before. Was in very bad mood. Anyway when things get a little bit better, I don’t really need a blog. I’m too realistic, sometimes. What I need to do now is: To be very patient.

Went for dinner with colleagues after OT-ing. We went all the way to this ulu place in Commonwealth. It is ulu, at least for me, in the way that it is like those very old restaurants in Malaysia. This is an open area hawker anyway. With the old songs playing around the ears, I totally missed the times staying with family while enjoying the good food. We talked like nobody’s business. We laughed like no one’s business. This was very fun which couldn’t be explained all in words :)

I was drunk last Friday, in Lunar. LOL. Totally fell asleep after got into the cab. When I woke up in the next morning, I was in the other’s house. Whoa~ luckily I have a bunch of nice friends :) Yea! I shall love all of you much more than now!

Teardrops on my cheeks

Finally burst out, when talking on the phone... finally

I woke up this morning and both eyes swollen like a puff. When it is mentally stressed and tired, and no one really cares, it then explodes.

Now I aware that my working life is like a seesaw. It rides me up and down. What should one comments when a very important person left, or decided to leave? What if not only ONE? What if one day I cannot take it anymore? Will I just get heart attack and say bye bye?

I feel that I’m very strong all these while. I stay alone in an unfamiliar country. I work with people from different cultures. I exercise my patience. I pretend I’m okay no matter what has happened. I listen to others’ problem and try to resolve for them. I keep everything to myself.

I’m so proud of myself!! Anyway, when I’m fully packed I wish to have someone who will listen to me. That is all I want.

The road in front of me is not so smooth..

I started to complain about people's attitude. I’m afraid I will lose my temper, one day. I tried very hard to be very patient these days, and I did. In fact, I was impatient inside me. I just can’t control but could still have my happy smiling face though. It is a fake. I’m indeed a faker, at all times. No one notice. Lol.

People said I tend to talk defiantly nowadays. I didn’t realize that, and even though it was true, I just cannot control myself. Words just burst out of my mouth.

Again, i am in depression. I’m hoping to get out of this stupid gloominess soon! It keeps me feeling uneasy. Take a BREAK will be a perfect resolution. But I cannot do so. So, let's forget it.

JIA YOU

Uni friends gathering

I went for my university friends gathering last night at Brewerkz @ Riverside Point. From 8 persons it reduced to half of it. It was a nice one still. But I talked much lesser this time. I was not as happy as I thought. It might be because one of them includes the Auditor.
Umm.. I should not have joined the gathering.. or at least not seeing him in such a short interval. Anyway when talking about my problems, all offered advice, and so did he. That was encouraging :)
The gathering ended at about 1130pm. We did not take any photos.

Where are YOU!!

I am slightly de-motivated at work. De-motivated in the sense of why am I still in this firm working half-dead when nobody is going to care and appreciate what you have done. It seems like I deserved it huh. The worst thing is that I do not have a supervisor to guide me. I need a supervisor urgently. But who cares. I want only one reporting director. But who cares. I’m okay to guide others on things that I have never experienced before. It doesn’t matter but it totally mentally stressed me out. And who cares. Some more why am I had to be distracted so frequently when I’m concentrating on my jobs. No one loves to do over-time just to listen to complaints. Now I am thinking. Why don’t I just get a better work-life-balanced job, if there are really ones, and quit this. I have the abilities, why not. I guess all are because I am so RELUCTANT on parting with my superb colleagues. I love my colleagues here :) BUT not all.

Take a step back to move forward

I fell down in the public on Wednesday evening. That happened after work. Pedestrians were looking at me. I felt so shy!! My knee was bleeding. It was so pain. I felt like crying because it’s so lonely. Weird feeling I have had. LOL. I did not cry at the end, anyway. My heart was filled because after I got into the office, everyone seemed so interesting on my wound. All offered to help. Happy!

And that I’ve just read a message from my cousin’s msn, it says: 慢慢走, 不要因為走太快而跌倒. This was very true, either in life or in my case. Sometimes we just need to move on slowly and step back at some point of time to enjoy the moment. If we were to get everything done in a short time, we might get hurt and miss out something that is so meaningful in life.

So, take a step back and enjoy the very little precious moment then move forward. because life is so short!

The Auditor II

Suddenly I feel like don’t know why I want to talk about the Auditor again.

He is really a good friend that he will make those people who have an over-sensitive nerve like me to think of his intention of being so often in dating me out for lunch or dinner, shopping or getting presents for his friends and his parents, from month to month. Just before New Year, we went to get my nephew new clothes. That moment was deeply impressed :) Sometimes we talk about own problems. We talked about work or family matters. We listened and tried to comfort each other. Sometimes we play jokes on each other too. That was really a fun part because from there I got to know he will not take any action for the moment. It is so funny and I feel so stupid.

And recently, during and after the Lunar New Year, I was sort of being a little bit uncontrollable thinking of him when I felt real moody. As at now, I am so stressed by work. The person I feel like want to talk to is the Auditor. Maybe it is solely because he is not one of my boss or colleagues.

I ever promised to myself that I will not think of him or talk about him again. But I failed to do so. It is really hard to forget a person than to remember a person. That is why I failed. I hate him sometimes because he really makes me so reluctant in getting new guy friends.

To get rid of all these, I gave myself a long deep thought.

I made promise to myself again. I will not try hard to forget everything about him and I will keep him in my mind. That was a sweet memory anyway :) because we have known each other for 6 years, such a long time. I am thankful to have him in my life. He filled one part of my life.

My relationship status now is not complicated anymore. I-AM-SINGLE-AND-AVAILABLE. Ha-ha!!

I will start from now, look for other better opportunities!! I believe there is SOMEONE out there who will treasure me :) So, Kuan Yin, Tua Pek Gong, Allah, God, and whatever God in the heaven, please, please grant the SOMEBODY the POWER when I need a shoulder and a warm big hug.

我的以為 我的感覺 我的掩飾 都是個屁

我以為 放假可以充電
我以為 一切都會過去
我以為 自己撐得下去

我以為的以為 原來都只是一個以為

我只是覺得 自己可以過得更好
我只是覺得 自己還有其他選擇
我只是覺得 自己應該勇敢一點

我的感覺 好像不那麼的真實

我假裝自己不介意 其實我最在意
我假裝自己很堅強 其實我在逞強
我假裝自己很勇敢 其實我很懦弱

我的掩飾 在別人眼里原來那麼理所當然

I am so emo now... just leave me alone..

哭过就好了

Just reached Singapore this morning!! Gotta back to work againnnnn....
Unpacked my luggage and did some cleaning to my room.. Feel the FRESHNESS~
But I am totally homesick again, just after 1/2 a day T.T

Was listening to 梁文音's newly released album all the day... This one deeply impressing me... 《哭过就好了》

不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方


我從來都不說不.不是因為我願意,是因為我愛你
我從來都不生氣.不是因為我沒有脾氣,是因為我愛你
我從來都不哭.不是因為我沒有眼淚,是因為我愛你

祝我生日快樂

昨天早上的飛機從新加坡直飛沙巴
一大早就已經到達terminal 1了,卻在check-in時發現自己把Msia IC和driving license忘在家里
花1個小時來回機場 還好趕得及跟Keryn碰面
收到今年的第一份生日禮物, 超感動的 T.T



我們只能夠小聊了一下,然後抱抱,她就得上飛機回家了
我有好多心事...
我不知道可以跟誰說 我也不知道誰願意聽我說

回家前的那幾天 其實發生了很多事 甚至到今天還沒解決
我和同事發生爭執了 然後我們冷戰
我很真心的想要挽回這段友情
但她似乎想要放棄 說我們只要當很好的同事就好
她強烈想要離職的念頭更把我嚇壞了
我想我真的惹火她了 可是我卻沒有認錯
因為我還是認為我不完全有錯...
很固執吧
只覺得她突然間對任何事都太敏感 以致我不管做甚麼說甚麼 都有錯
我越描越黑 越解釋越把事情弄得更遭糕

我向2位朋友提起了
他們似乎都覺得問題不大 要我別想太多 事情會過去的
我沒有告訴他們
我其實辦不到

今天是我的農曆生日
我也跟馬迷提起了 她也說不要想太多
無論如何, 我想我不應該像現在這樣要別人為了自己的事情煩惱
謝謝馬迷給我的這個小紅包!

BBQ @ Downtown East

1st barbeque in Downtown East for the year!! I was kind of excited. Was so looking forward to this outing which we planned it since last December. But it ended up not so fun as I expected :(

SQ, LS, YM and I went overnight at the chalet after work on Friday. Had so much laughter in the cab! The taxi uncle with his earpiece on cannot hear what SQ said. Poor thing. Poor SQ. LOL

LT came and we chatted till mid-night. Really miss her so much but I don’t know how to express. Ended up talking about work-related stuff. Kept complaining. Non-stop complaining. And WT came joined us just right before LT left.

We bought loads of food stuff for the BBQ. Thanks shaun for helping us to carry the things!
We slept till about 10am the next day. Went for brunch at Nihon Mura. Had nice food.



Can’t imagine my stupid look like this. I don’t act like this in normal days. I must be infected by SQ’s virus.



Ha-ha! SQ was so funny too. It’s shaun offered her the seaweed huh. LOL.



Hmm... Stop stop! Should not have talked about this topic, feeling so YUCKKSSS. XD
Only 6 of us so we cancelled the cycling activity. Then we went to the arcade.



It was my 1st time taking this photo print here. I missed school times with my best buddies.



Till the time when BBQ time started.
We were so lucky to have 4 of the super nice guys be the chef of the night!



See them BBQ-ing so hard. Million thanks to KF, KC1, YK and KC2!!



And thanks SP for bringing them here to join us :) We should have got to know each other better. Look forward to our next gathering, if any! Ha-ha

We had another round of birthday celebration after the BBQ. This time it was with ZX, JT and I together.



Before everyone went off, we played some games in the room. Was not really co-operative during the game session cuz I really don’t like the game. Anyway, just thought if we show our interest in and made it end earlier, we will have our own fun time very soon. He-he.

Lastly we took this group photo in the room and waived good-bye.



Soccer, nuts, beer, whiskey and tequila in the lounge before bed. These made us slept so tight in the night :)

LAUGH OUT LOUD as u can, pls

Sometimes i just hate myself for my lousy english !!
Will be okay. I promise.

Early birthday celebration

It was a stressful Friday for me due to the GST submission deadline.
Luckily, we got a February babies’ birthday party in the evening.



The ‘babies’ are Ei Cho and I :)



Thank Fiona for the yummilicious orange cake !!



Everyone was so happy. TGIF... lol

JJ, again. lol

Received a mms this afternoon, it seemed to be very nice weather in sabah when I was still in my dreams in singapore. LOL

Ha-ha, JJ is so kpo. He’s trying to help out big brother to wash the double-cab outside the gate. Mummy told me he was playing in the bath tub for almost half an hour last night, which was = my talking time with her last night. Hmm, she's dropping me a hint.. But it is true that JJ loves to play with water :P

Anyway, did not talk about work with mummy this time, really scare that she would never picked up my phone call again. jess, jia you by yourself lah. and try to make decision by yourself. JIA YOU

:(

I thought I can pretend as if nothing has happened, for this time, again. I don’t know how many times I had mention about someone is leaving or has left, in my blog. I honestly wanted to make clear that this blog is not opened for this purpose. But I just can’t avoid discussing this topic recently :(

To cut it short, YM has resigned. Again another of my good friend cum colleague is leaving us soon, leaving me alone with SQ [ SQ, don’t worry. You still have me, and we have PWT, SP and LS :) ] Please note again I’m not blaming anyone, just like I did not blame the others. This is a fact. I know she has this intention since long ago, at least 6 months ago. I’m prepared. And she has prepared me about this too.

I will be fine again. I will be fine very soon. Just that i still wonder why am I still here while most of my close colleagues have left. I want to know why....

Okie, I’m into a business opportunity lately. I thought i can start it well and yet i did not. As there are quite loads of things has happened / happening, which made me can’t really concentrate on that. I hope those who care about me understand me and give me some time. To be a multi-tasker, at least at the very early stage, I need to be trained to be multitasked, what I need is time, I need space to breath and please leave me alone at this point of time. I don’t want it to be some kind of stress that avoids me to proceed with achieving my dreams. PLEASE.

All I want now is HOLIDAYS! I miss papa, I miss mummy, I miss da gor & xiao gor, I miss sis, I miss JJ, I miss everyone in the House. A short and relax break will recharge me to the fullest for me to face the cruel world again, after cny. Jia you!

Little JieJie again

Just after talking to mummy last night, I get her to mms me JieJie’s latest photo.
Then she sent me only in this morning. Made me waiting for her the last whole night.
Picture was taken when JieJie waiting for his school bus this morning.
He looks so smart in his school uniform! And, that is my kindergarten school badge!! LOL...
I just can’t wait to go home!!

Little JieJie

J: mummy 啊, 在做莫?

JJ: ah ma在洗碗.

J: ???

J: 叫大姑

JJ: 大姑

J: ah ma leh?

JJ: ah ma在洗碗

J: 叫ah ma 听电话

JJ: ah ma在洗碗oh...

J: 叫ah ma 听电话la

JJ: ah ma在洗碗..

J: 我知道la. 拿电话放在ah ma耳朵

JJ: 什么..耳朵?

J: … …

JJ: *@^#$%&;! ….....

J: 你在讲什莫oh ??

JJ: !#$%^&*" ..….....

J: huh?

M: 他放电话在地上, 在自言自语拉.

J: … …

Lol.. My little jie jie knows how to talk liao. We can communicate liao. I can speak with him when I’m back in Sabah liao. I can bring him to the kindergarten for a day liao. Shooooooooo excited!! I miss everyone in the house! Work is not fun at all, now.

Kukup Trip

I just came back from my crazy Kukup trip =D
It is not a fun place to go. So a 2-Day-1-night stay is more than enough.



Kukup is a tiny fishing village. With many nice ah pek, ah ma, uncle, aunty, didi, mei mei, and baby.

They are all kind and lovely people.



I enjoyed this short trip with all of you ladies.

Because of you, this trip was so FUN!! Thank you all darlings =)

Some negative thoughts

It’s been 2 weeks we’ve been struggled together. We faced problems. We helped each other. We complained. We’re not going to have a better tomorrow if the situation persists. One fine day; someone might leave, someone might go, and someone might stay.

I’m not contented at all. I can’t concentrate at work. I lost attention to a lot of things. I lost my way. And this keeps me missing home, missing mummy, missing daddy, missing those who come into my mind.

Everyone is still happily playing around as if there has nothing happened. You pretend. I pretend. She/he pretends. But I’m totally stressed out. I lost a sense of security. Because. Everything seems to be so faked. Everything seems to be too far away. Anything can happen without any sign. Nothing is going to last. Forever.

01.01.2010

I have had my 2010 New Year celebration in Toa Payoh this year. I stayed overnight on New Year eve with sweet girls Keryn, Vivian, Plastic Peng and Khang Ling. We had our homemade steamboat for dinner. We had white wine, red wine and honey Choya. And a sweet cake from the Cake House sharp at 12.01am on 01.01.2010. Happy 2010 everybody!