Quoted from Dictionary.com, it means - characterized by indecision, as persons; irresolute; undecided.
Dislike myself being indecisive..
It's only been a short period of time.. and I gonna overthrow everything now..
I'm very contradictory..
I got to admit that I'm those type of family-oriented person. I could give up everything for them.
This decision made can ease the pain and the sadness. The word "regret", is not allowed.