给一个朋友 - ww

张小娴说过：

“你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去，

你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑，

你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人，

根本不值得你为之伤心，

今天回首，何尝不是一个喜剧？

尽情时，自有另一番新境界，

所有的悲伤只不过是历史。”

或许我没有这个资格。但是想跟你分享她说过的话。

Hoping for a good start in May

I’m supposed doing my works that I brought home but I’m blogging now. OMG.. What is Tax Equalization? I’m doing the thing that I don’t really understand what it means. Anyway I will try my very best to complete it before Thursday ends. Cuz I’m going to Malacca on Friday!!

It has been very tough for me during the month of April. I faced failures. And I lost faith in true friendship. This was the second time I feel so bad after the Redang Trip incident.. This time, I have a chance to find out why she did that to me but I don’t wish to know the fact. I’m just afraid and tired of being cheated.

It might be too stress for me that I made myself cried in front of my friends..

It was the very first time I made myself drunk in the pub too. Good experience for me. And that I realized I have a bunch of friends who are always being with me and supporting me. Sometimes the ways they talked were harsh, but at least that were from the bottom of their hearts.

I’m surprised that I felt so weird when I have to go home alone recently. It must be something wrong with me.

So after this blog, I decided to put my works aside and throw myself into the bed and wake up earlier in the morning! LOL. Nightmares go away and Sweet dreams please come to me :)

I Need A Change

I was very down the day before. Was in very bad mood. Anyway when things get a little bit better, I don’t really need a blog. I’m too realistic, sometimes. What I need to do now is: To be very patient.

Went for dinner with colleagues after OT-ing. We went all the way to this ulu place in Commonwealth. It is ulu, at least for me, in the way that it is like those very old restaurants in Malaysia. This is an open area hawker anyway. With the old songs playing around the ears, I totally missed the times staying with family while enjoying the good food. We talked like nobody’s business. We laughed like no one’s business. This was very fun which couldn’t be explained all in words :)

I was drunk last Friday, in Lunar. LOL. Totally fell asleep after got into the cab. When I woke up in the next morning, I was in the other’s house. Whoa~ luckily I have a bunch of nice friends :) Yea! I shall love all of you much more than now!

哭过就好了

Just reached Singapore this morning!! Gotta back to work againnnnn....
Unpacked my luggage and did some cleaning to my room.. Feel the FRESHNESS~
But I am totally homesick again, just after 1/2 a day T.T

Was listening to 梁文音's newly released album all the day... This one deeply impressing me... 《哭过就好了》

不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方


我從來都不說不.不是因為我願意,是因為我愛你
我從來都不生氣.不是因為我沒有脾氣,是因為我愛你
我從來都不哭.不是因為我沒有眼淚,是因為我愛你

01.01.2010

I have had my 2010 New Year celebration in Toa Payoh this year. I stayed overnight on New Year eve with sweet girls Keryn, Vivian, Plastic Peng and Khang Ling. We had our homemade steamboat for dinner. We had white wine, red wine and honey Choya. And a sweet cake from the Cake House sharp at 12.01am on 01.01.2010. Happy 2010 everybody!

Night at Timbre@Art House

After 2 days of internet breakdown finally i can online again last nite.. and the 1st thing i did was log in to facebook !! arghh.. i think i'm addicted to fb already..



went to Timbre on friday nite.. vonny and pei jie joined us too!! but it was raining the whole nite..
The band is nice !! they are Goodfellas~



love them singing Lady Gaga's poker face!! we played poker cards too LOLx..
and of course we had beer and lots of good food.. ta da~





its quite a noisy place afterall.. so for me its not a good place to talk.. somehow have to shout !!? so.. i have no voice now.. anyway.. love to hang out with the ladies..

Pieces of life

love elmo very much!!
i got this magnetic thingy from steph when we went shopping in PS in early september =)




sometimes in mid of september
after work, went out with kl to look for bday present for his friend and finally bought this watch (the one on the left) from French Connection . i prefer the one on the right.




end of sep i guess,
we saw this attractive advertisement on the notice board
its like a hostel near outram park and wai tien's eyes became so big and round when she spotted "include cleaning and laundry".. hahas!! cleaning is okay but i prefer doing laundry by myself =p
i remembered we said, call the lady to have a look at the place.. but till now.. no action taken yet.. hahas!!




got this rose at Mr Carson's deepavali party on tuesday
WoooOoowo.. i would say i really love the place!!! had champagne near the pool, international buffet was shooooo great too!!
its at the Park Hotel Clarke Quay

Depressed

2nd day of work without lao ban again..
do i really need to jot down wads happening since lao ban left..? i made myself looked so stupid..

Hmm.. i seriously need somebody to speak with.. but somebody is not around to listen.. maybe somebody thought that i'm enjoying my life now.. somebody does not know i need to talk.. i gave up!!

At least someone cheered me up today.. i was offered a chance to the ndp full-dressed rehersal this saturday.. was thinking to go back to batu pahat over the weekends, but i think it is better for me to go out to the crowd and get some fresh human air even there might be H1N1.....

i was totally annoyed by the weird dream since last thursday.. mum called me early this morning to make very sure that i'm alright.. coz she had a frightening dream last nite.. the dream was about me but she refused to tell me wads the dream was all about.. i feel like crying.. Mum's too worried..

I'm not afraid of death.. i'm not afraid of dreaming friend who passed away.. dont make it sounds scary.. it''s fate that everyone will die on one fine day.. there's people die everyday but it is not good to keep talking about death in normal days like these.. it makes me miss syn liang badly these few days.. i feel depressed, i'm in low spirit..

第2个我想念的朋友

继第一篇我很想念的2个朋友
我现在要写第2个咯~
这篇写好一阵子了，今天有空整理整理就po上来

自从去年因为搬家的事情我跟我的好朋友闹翻了
我一直以为我们永远是好朋友
不管发生什么事都会一直是好朋友
我们的友谊从中学6年延伸到大学3年
加上零零碎碎在新加坡的这1年半
有太多的回忆是我很珍惜的
可是却有人质问我：会不会是你想的太天真？

我们因为搬家的事闹翻
不搬家应该就没事了
我害她白出了房子的订金
冲动 是我最强的弱点
简单来说，她好像被我“放飞机”了。
结果我们就这样互相不联络半年
很幼稚

我以为这件事会有烟消云散的一天
一切的误解会被谅解 被体谅
我也以为我在今年的3月遇到了这一天
才发现那是我自己亲手挖的无底洞
在等待别人把我推下去 永远也爬不起来

4月份的热浪岛之旅是我期盼2个好朋友重逢的旅程
1个月前我努力了好久好久
终于她答应我的邀约
让2个好朋友再一次一起出去透透气 一起出去玩 一起去放松

出发前的那个晚上
我们约好在地铁站见面 一起去搭巴士
等她的时候我收到了一封简讯
对当时的我来说 那简直就是一颗没有计时的炸弹
当场就把我炸的粉身碎骨
内容是她有一些事情没办法跟我同行
不论我再怎样坚持 她的电话关机就是关机

我杵在人潮里什么也不能做，头脑怎样也不能清醒
马迷来电才把我带回现实

巴士里坐在陌生人旁边的我没了该有的矜持
眼泪不停往脸颊两边滑下来
我才终于清楚别人对我的讽刺
真的很讽刺

从那一刻开始
我的生命里 没有好朋友
我的回忆里 没有好朋友
我的现实里 没有好朋友
这个被形容词包装的太美好的名词 很虚假 很做作

没有了好朋友我也要去enjoy那个热浪岛之旅
至少它让我对一个不是好朋友的朋友有深一层的认识
我开始喜欢这个不是好朋友的朋友
因为不是好朋友 我们之间不会存在那种对好朋友的期待

kl, 谢谢你适时的支持和鼓励
真心的批评会维护我们的友情。

I miss back when...

又开始心情低落
大概因为回柔佛回得太频密了

Department来了新的interns
让我最近老得很快

这几天一边整理存在电脑里一大堆的照片一边回忆着大学时期的点点滴滴
然后一边听着tim mcgraw的back when







好想回到过去轻轻松松念书的日子
工作好可怕好恐怖
未来好渺茫


p/s: ジェス, 往前看, 不要往后看please!!

一个我想念的朋友

那天，因为突然很想念一个朋友，写了一篇日记。

“今年，我永远失去了一个朋友。一个男，朋友。从没有想过会这样。

情绪波动超乎自己的想象。

心亮，刚在今年年头过世了。

觉得自己很勇敢，在半年后的现在我已经可以大方地谈及你的事情了。

回想起来，我从初中很喜欢你一直到现在。

你或许不知道当你在工作，打篮球，你标枪，你跑步，尤其你运动的时候是最帅的！呵呵！

自己在想，有没有别的因素，让我喜欢上标枪？

知道那坏消息的时候是很激动的。

那时候我第一次一个人在国外过着新的独立生活，第一次一个人面对上司的冷眼对待，第一次一个人面对着这种坏消息……

那时我不知道可以向谁倾诉，只有流得满脸的泪水陪我度过很多个很漫长的晚上，晚上一放工就完全崩溃了。

你知道吗，最后我还是打电话跟妈妈哭，把妈妈吓坏了，哈哈！妈妈还以为你是我的男朋友呢！

我跟她说呢，你啊要我只把你当成朋友就好。即使你给我的感觉是不一样的。

你的离开，是给我的理由吗？

又或许当时你如果改变你的决定，现在就不会有这样的局面了呢？我坚信。

后来我就到处向同学收集你过世的原因和消息。

从你弟弟那里知道，是因为喝酒的事情。我在心里面想，真的吗？真的是报纸说得那样吗？

妹妹也帮我把你的新闻收起来让我回家的时候可以看看。读了后就被我搁着了。不想因为它让我心情变不好。

我要自私的停留在开心的时刻。至少，那是只有我和你才知道的。

现在有时候，我还会幼稚的在想，你会不会就像隐形人一样四处游走着去看看你的家人，朋友，还有我。

我很想念你。”

还有一个朋友我也很想念她……