Hoping for a good start in May

I’m supposed doing my works that I brought home but I’m blogging now. OMG.. What is Tax Equalization? I’m doing the thing that I don’t really understand what it means. Anyway I will try my very best to complete it before Thursday ends. Cuz I’m going to Malacca on Friday!!

It has been very tough for me during the month of April. I faced failures. And I lost faith in true friendship. This was the second time I feel so bad after the Redang Trip incident.. This time, I have a chance to find out why she did that to me but I don’t wish to know the fact. I’m just afraid and tired of being cheated.

It might be too stress for me that I made myself cried in front of my friends..

It was the very first time I made myself drunk in the pub too. Good experience for me. And that I realized I have a bunch of friends who are always being with me and supporting me. Sometimes the ways they talked were harsh, but at least that were from the bottom of their hearts.

I’m surprised that I felt so weird when I have to go home alone recently. It must be something wrong with me.

So after this blog, I decided to put my works aside and throw myself into the bed and wake up earlier in the morning! LOL. Nightmares go away and Sweet dreams please come to me :)

哭过就好了

Just reached Singapore this morning!! Gotta back to work againnnnn....
Unpacked my luggage and did some cleaning to my room.. Feel the FRESHNESS~
But I am totally homesick again, just after 1/2 a day T.T

Was listening to 梁文音's newly released album all the day... This one deeply impressing me... 《哭过就好了》

不喜欢怀疑什麽
并不表示我没有感受
看你微妙的变化 慢慢不同
我不是生气 只是心痛

最讨厌被误会了
但越解释越觉得难过
你可以说人会变 但不能说
你会这麽做是我的错

哭过就好了 伤都会好的
这样相信所以深呼吸着割舍
爱是为了拥抱 为了牵手
不是为了争吵 为了调头

哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

越多美好堆叠的过往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲伤
要找勇气却不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某个地方


我從來都不說不.不是因為我願意,是因為我愛你
我從來都不生氣.不是因為我沒有脾氣,是因為我愛你
我從來都不哭.不是因為我沒有眼淚,是因為我愛你

JJ, again. lol

Received a mms this afternoon, it seemed to be very nice weather in sabah when I was still in my dreams in singapore. LOL

Ha-ha, JJ is so kpo. He’s trying to help out big brother to wash the double-cab outside the gate. Mummy told me he was playing in the bath tub for almost half an hour last night, which was = my talking time with her last night. Hmm, she's dropping me a hint.. But it is true that JJ loves to play with water :P

Anyway, did not talk about work with mummy this time, really scare that she would never picked up my phone call again. jess, jia you by yourself lah. and try to make decision by yourself. JIA YOU

:(

I thought I can pretend as if nothing has happened, for this time, again. I don’t know how many times I had mention about someone is leaving or has left, in my blog. I honestly wanted to make clear that this blog is not opened for this purpose. But I just can’t avoid discussing this topic recently :(

To cut it short, YM has resigned. Again another of my good friend cum colleague is leaving us soon, leaving me alone with SQ [ SQ, don’t worry. You still have me, and we have PWT, SP and LS :) ] Please note again I’m not blaming anyone, just like I did not blame the others. This is a fact. I know she has this intention since long ago, at least 6 months ago. I’m prepared. And she has prepared me about this too.

I will be fine again. I will be fine very soon. Just that i still wonder why am I still here while most of my close colleagues have left. I want to know why....

Okie, I’m into a business opportunity lately. I thought i can start it well and yet i did not. As there are quite loads of things has happened / happening, which made me can’t really concentrate on that. I hope those who care about me understand me and give me some time. To be a multi-tasker, at least at the very early stage, I need to be trained to be multitasked, what I need is time, I need space to breath and please leave me alone at this point of time. I don’t want it to be some kind of stress that avoids me to proceed with achieving my dreams. PLEASE.

All I want now is HOLIDAYS! I miss papa, I miss mummy, I miss da gor & xiao gor, I miss sis, I miss JJ, I miss everyone in the House. A short and relax break will recharge me to the fullest for me to face the cruel world again, after cny. Jia you!

Little JieJie again

Just after talking to mummy last night, I get her to mms me JieJie’s latest photo.
Then she sent me only in this morning. Made me waiting for her the last whole night.
Picture was taken when JieJie waiting for his school bus this morning.
He looks so smart in his school uniform! And, that is my kindergarten school badge!! LOL...
I just can’t wait to go home!!

Little JieJie

J: mummy 啊, 在做莫?

JJ: ah ma在洗碗.

J: ???

J: 叫大姑

JJ: 大姑

J: ah ma leh?

JJ: ah ma在洗碗

J: 叫ah ma 听电话

JJ: ah ma在洗碗oh...

J: 叫ah ma 听电话la

JJ: ah ma在洗碗..

J: 我知道la. 拿电话放在ah ma耳朵

JJ: 什么..耳朵?

J: … …

JJ: *@^#$%&;! ….....

J: 你在讲什莫oh ??

JJ: !#$%^&*" ..….....

J: huh?

M: 他放电话在地上, 在自言自语拉.

J: … …

Lol.. My little jie jie knows how to talk liao. We can communicate liao. I can speak with him when I’m back in Sabah liao. I can bring him to the kindergarten for a day liao. Shooooooooo excited!! I miss everyone in the house! Work is not fun at all, now.

Just another saturday

It was tax colleagues and ex-colleagues outing yesterday.. i went to sing k with wai tien, yee mun, lindsey, vonny, lishan, boon siew n pei jie.. and had steamboat dinner afterthat =)

seriously i sick for 2 days already but i dont want to be alone at home so i decided to just join them..



that was my 1st time ktv since i came to singapore.. funny! wai tien said gonna bring me out more often.. heee.. had so so much fun at topOne ktv n surprisingly i can still sing! i like lishan's voice =)

ktv till 6pm and we went for dinner @ Happy Pay Steamboat & Chef.. we had delicious Sri Lanka crabs, prawns.. and lots of seafood.. how i wish thr was someone to help me peel off all the crabs n prawns shells haha!! fact was no one thr so i did not enjoy the crabs n prawns much =p



I'm still so sick.. nose is still being blocked.. skin's very dry.. voice changed until mum thought she called the wrong person this morning.. i dont wan to go n see doctor!! i hate eating medicine!! hope vitamin C n water can help..

mum said dad's going back to the east tmr early morning.. i should hv to go back to johor yday de.. i only saw dad thrice this year.. so little.. haiz.. i feel like go home now..

yea, steph called just now and asked me to go eat dinner at her house cos she n her housemates will b cooking tonite! woaa how sweet of her.. but too bad i really restless n dun feel like moving my body..

Grandma 3rd year of death

i think i caught cold.. since i came back from msia on tuesday
my nose blocked.. today worse =(
i didnt talk much today and feel restless
somemore our joice and syl, the intern girl and boy are leaving tmr
there will be no more fun, no jokes, no gossips, no laughing starting next monday..
hmm.. moody and quite sad actually..

Hey.. i wanna blog about grandma's 3rd yr of death ceremony lar not abt chasing my nose and the interns..

very good i met bros again since chinese new year.. how i wish i could stay with brothers, sister, mum n dad forever.. haiz..

it was a very very big ceremony.. the "house" that dad asked ppl to build for grandma, grandfather, uncle and another 5 of dad's uncles and aunties was a 2 & a half storey house.. wow, gorgeous.. furnitures, servants, cars, bikes, all provided.. and cash.. $$$
i cant imagine how flat is dad's wallet now.. T.T

the ceremony last for 3 days and 3 nights.. very tired but very serious still during the ceremony.. all uncles, aunties, cousins, friends were so helpful and supportive =)

finally this grand ceremony was held and end.. grandma rests peacefully in her 80s.. grandma will "po bi" all of us, hee.. we took many photos.. but the photos are not with me..

one good thing, i love my nephew tee sheng jie heapssss... he followed all wad i did during the ceremony, he is so good boy n clever.. he's only 4yrs old this year and he is so chubby now.. omg, he is so handsome so cannot be chubby.. i taught him sit-up to flatten his tummy and small bro was surprised that jie jie able to do that!! so cute!! and i forced him to call me "da gu" whenever and wherever he sees me.. wuaahahaaa... he loves me i guess.. and i definitely love him..

one bad thing was 2 of my beloved brothers got into a fight during the ceremony.. i was not there to help and stop the fight.. the rest of the days me and mom were like a layer cake.. mom said that was the true meaning of "in a dilemma".. quite correct huh...

the next day dad brought mum, me, small bro, big bro and sis-in-law to visit the graveyard where grandfather, grandma and dad's little brother will be sleeping forever there.. dad talked a lots.. and he finally made the 2 brothers peace.. i love dad.. he can make everything back to square one.. he managed to make them hugged.. hahaaha.. touching..

mom got lots of worries and i am not going to tell.. i told myself i will help her =)
I have a wish.. keep it a secret for the moment =) wish me more luck yo!!

Good news for myself.. big bro is getting his architect friend to design his future semi-detached double storey house in sabah.. he did reserve a room for me n sis.. wuaahahaa.. so will be leaving the same old house for small bro!? wadever it is as long i will have my new room soon!! hee.. big bro showed me the idea drawn by the designer.. I like it~!! but i wonder how often will i go back to the East? heee... well, i will fully utilised it.. okay, treat tat as my holiday resort then.. set!! =D

SaturDay

Went to lunch at 老北京 plaza singapura with yee mun yday afternoon..
Look at our food, so so so delicious and it only cost us $19.8 per pax!

1st dish, 北京烤鸭 each of us had around 5 pcs of it .. yummy


2nd dish, 小笼包.. my 2nd time having this, 1st time was back in 2006 in taiwan.. haha.. =p


3rd dish, wuahahahaa.. 滋补养生汤, with abalone inside.. heehe.. good for ladies..


4th dish, 刀削面(素食) kinda salty coz of tat 金针菇? cant finish this cox i dont like the taste..


5th dish, 翡翠豆腐 wuah~ yummy wor.. must try this..


last dish, cannot remember wads this called but me and yee mun so falled-in-love with it.. a kind of 甜品 mixed with dragon fruits, strawberry, nata de coco, sago, jelly and sour soup..


we talked a lotss.. i missed the time i went out for lunch/dinner with family in msia when i saw people sitting together with dad mum bros and sis.. umm.. i missed home again..

okay.. yee mun needed a red shirt so we went to HangTen and got each of us a piece of this at only $8!! haha.. very red


After that we headed to the newly opened Orchard Central.. Hmmzz.. very big shopping mall but not much shops opened yet.. anyway we managed to get 5 pairs of eye masks and a free face mask! yay.. i gonna use it tonite..

如果我也可以用画画表达我现在的心情

如果我也可以用画画表达我现在的心情

我就可以画一个遇见难题就homesick的女孩子
它满脸通红
欲言又止
还有流不出来的眼泪……

我就不用像现在这样绞尽脑汁把现在的心情用文字一个一个打出来

“我最近实在很　郁闷！”

I miss back when...

又开始心情低落
大概因为回柔佛回得太频密了

Department来了新的interns
让我最近老得很快

这几天一边整理存在电脑里一大堆的照片一边回忆着大学时期的点点滴滴
然后一边听着tim mcgraw的back when







好想回到过去轻轻松松念书的日子
工作好可怕好恐怖
未来好渺茫


p/s: ジェス, 往前看, 不要往后看please!!

应该要沉淀

我回来了！ 病了、 心也沉到谷底去了…………

自从离乡背井念书、到现在在新加坡工作，这次是第一次让自己放假过年超过1个星期！

或许粘着家人太久了，我舍不得回来。

上飞机前

马迷知道我会哭的　就一直一直想办法要我哭

机场那么多人我怎么可以……

也还好有妹妹陪着

一直到1个人在吉隆坡转机时眼泪就真的流下来

然后一整趟回家的行程，脑海不由自主的浮现一大堆负面的想法…………

想到底有什么办法可以让我永远都不用再为离开家里而难过。

1年 至少我还要忍耐1年 。

1st blog for 2009

2009年1月1号
我跟马迷和妹妹坐车从新加坡回柔佛。



她们来新加坡4-5天都住在阿姨家，我因为工作所以没有怎么带她们去走走，都是阿姨带她们出去。想起来会遗憾，希望下次有机会！

长长的weekend过得还不错！
唯独剪了一头不是很满意的头发。很气炸！
当时真的很气那个hairdresser为什么要把我的头发剪掉。他知不知道头发很难留的啊！
可是头发已经接不回来了，只可以很伤心。



结果，顶着一头短发，不知道什么时候才留得长！？

明天又要回柔佛了！是短期以内最后一次回去，爸妈下星期一就要回沙巴等我和妹妹回家过年！

September

九月的第一天。
好可怕~ 时间过得太快了。

上个星期五我又回马来西亚了。一直告诉自己说不可以再这样下去了。
回家一次，依赖马迷的习惯就更强了。
我好像在强迫自己一些什么…… 可是我还是必须要那样逼自己……
我已经是个大人了！

就这样……下个星期我还是要回去，因为马迷要在家里开月光晚会！要请好多好多阿姨舅舅表兄弟姐妹一起来家里聚聚。好期待~~~

公司的BBQ月光会我大概就不能参加了，嘻嘻！其实我好想去。
主要是因为可以在resort过夜，吹海风，还有我想去cycling，哈哈哈！
后来想想，cycling好像什么时候都可以，所以就请老板，ah sey，ah mun，还有大家原谅我改不了的“粘妈妈”症状……